Monday, November 19, 2007

A week of Thankgiving...Day 1

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. (Psalm 106:1)

At the end of the day, when my kids are in bed and my house is quiet I can look at my life and feel incredibly blessed. I have two beautiful and healthy children. They are sweet and curious and funny. Sometimes I find being their mommy hard, but I can't imagine my life without them. They bring me so much joy.

I am lucky enough to be married to my best friend. I trust him completely. I never doubt his love or commitment to me or our family. He is a good provider and a man of faith. He makes me laugh, he encourages me, he's my rock.

We live in a part of the state where housing prices are ridiculous....1/2 million gets you a nice starter home...and yet, we are lucky enough to have our own home. It's by no means a dream house, but it's ours and I think it's beautiful.

I don't have to worry about how I will pay for groceries or put gas in my car. I can turn the heat up if it feels chilly. We have plenty of clothes. My kids have lots of toys. I can buy Christmas presents without worrying about how I will pay other bills.

Compared to many people in this country and certainly is this world, my life is so good. But like I said, I tend to only be able to see this at the end of the day. During the day, in the midst of all the chaos, poopy diapers, laundry and talking back I rarely feel thankful. If I'm honest, I have to admit that the way I feel is exactly the opposite of thankfulness...I feel discontent. I throw my arms in the air and scream (in my head, not out loud) "IS THIS REALLY MY LIFE?" Can it be that the smart, funny and pretty girl that I once was has become this crabby, tired woman wearing sweats?

I don't want to be like that. So small and so selfish. How come it's so hard to see the big picture in the light of day?

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Bethany said...

Awww we are all like that...and hey you are not in sweats in this look pretty hot. HEE HEE. Actually lovely things to be thankful for and LOVELY LOVELY pic of the family.

Anonymous said...

Sarah, your family looks wonderful
Happy THanksgiving, Elise&Abby R

Chaotic Joy said...

I was really touched by this post, because it is me. I know in the quiet moments that I have anything anyone could ever ask for. But in the midst of the chaos I feel only stress and, you said it perfectly, discontent. I feel constantly guilty that I have been unable to model thankfulness and peace to my children, since I only seem to truly find it when they are not there.

Brian said...

Happy Thanksgiving Sarah.