Tuesday, September 11, 2007

First "Real" Day of School

Note to self: On Thursday, when Sam goes back to school, do not get him dressed until after he has eaten. Failure to do so will result in having to change him before you leave the house thereby creating laundry before 8:00 a.m...DUH!

We had a little "I don't want to go to school today." this morning, but overall, we did a pretty good job of getting out the door and to school, on time...8:00 a.m is early for us...really early...

On the way there, Sam said, "Mom, are you going to leave me there by myself, like a big boy this morning?"

"Yes, but I promise I'll come back to pick you up."

"What are you going to do when you leave me there?"

"I'm going to go to the grocery store and buy you a treat. What would you like?

"Cupcakes. And mommy, don't be gone for too long 'cause I'm gonna miss you very much."

My eyes welled up and I almost lost it. I'm gonna miss you too little buddy.

He did great. He barely noticed when I left and he was all smiles when I picked him up. He's walking around the house talking about his new friend Simon and singing a days of the week song, "Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday..." He informed me that he doesn't like Thursday...(someday he will, I'm sure of it).

I got teary eyed a few times while he was gone. I know he's ready and I know it's good for him. I think I'm just having a hard time with what it represents...for us, pre school is the first time that we've been apart. He goes to Sunday School, and MOPS but those things don't represent becoming more independent, those things don't make me feel like my baby is growing up. For me, this is one of the hardest parts of mothering, being able to nurture his independence while letting him slowly move away from me. A big part of me wants to just hold him in my arms and protect him, keep him sweet, keep him small.


Bethany said...

Oh I would be crying too

Beth Young said...

Awww! Yes, it's hard. Both of my children are in school 3 days a week (full days) and it's tough, but the reward is that they thoroughly love it and are learning a lot. My reward is a quiet home...but that comes with a "to-do" list a mile long (work mostly)....anyway, sounds like he did great.